Today, the Revelle ResDean complimented me for helping out at the Watermelon Drop at the beginning and at the end, and being, and I quote, "Awesome. Awesome." I only do it to support all the wonderful people that make events like the W-drop happen, and I feel like it's a tradition for me. Although, when he said that it was one of those "I told you so" moments, or "This is what you're missing out on and Sixth is gaining."

p.s. I am on the planning committee for UnOlympics for the two colleges. rock on f'sho. it's like 2x the UCSD pride. :]
--10:21 PM

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Sometimes I just want to blog one line and be done with it, but the hassle of logging out of my gmail, logging into my blogger, and waiting for everything to load is just too much effort [i.e., I'm lazy]

I've recently discovered ... crap, I was gonna probably write something insightful, but I got caught up in wanting to write the next thing, which is here.

"People won’t remember what you did. People won’t remember what you said. But, people will remember how you made them feel." -Somebody I can't remember.

I have heard this quote over. and over. and over again, during my 3 years of somewhat intense Revelle leadership. and until now, I never realized the truth behind this quote. For example, people hold grudges [I try not to, but if I do they're short-lived], and can't remember right away why they held a grudge against someone. All they remember is something happened, and that made them feel this way or react that way.You're not going to see someone you haven't seen in awhile and say, "Oh yeah, you had that fantabulous program!" or, "You said that super insightful thing the other day!" No. They'll remember that you were nice to them. You ever say about someone, "They're really nice." and whoever asks, "Why are they nice?" "I don't know. They just are." Something pretty indescribable.

This leads to other revelations. At my Revelle RA group interview I try to make conversation, but I come off as assertive. Nowadays, I say nothing at all, and then am perceived quiet? snobby? etc.? I'm working on it, and this is one of the things I'm most worried about for Orientation [this kinda came up during training. I think the trick is to ask a lot of questions, feign interest, and let the other person talk alot] and making that first impression. Maybe the trick is to STOP OVERTHINKING THINGS.

Another point is that I have been extensively involved in Revelle. And this got me as far as half-hired at Revelle [still, no bitterness] But, the thing is, is that this got my hired at Sixth. Leadership styles are different, yes, but involvement is involvement, no matter what college. That's what I love about Sixth, and what I think they love about me- I am highly involved. I had to attend an ARD interview, and my supervisor said, "Well, Minnie isn't a Sixth College student, but I know that she is very involved in Revelle..." and I am thankful for that fact, that they see my potential.

Lately I've been only checking my e-mail at around 8am. everyday. This is bad, since I miss out on a lot of opportunities.
Also, I've been finding myself annoying, to myself and others. I let things slip out, make things awk-word. Minnie- work on this.

I am constantly analyzing myself, my situations, my options. I've become a [rather crappy] vegetarian. I need to rethink my priorities, realize my potential in everything I do, and decide what I will allow to change and what to remain the same in my life [value-wise, you know?]

On the plus side, I'm having a great time with the OL fam, and am going to orientatetneaotue first years in exactly 2 weeks. My mind is racing. and I'm reallllllyyy annoyingly obsessed with Harry Potter.

OH YEAH, and I wanted to tell someone: the reason I can't handle certain religions, is that for everything I do I'll never feel like I'm doing enough, and that I'm not good enough for anything, anyone, any afterlife. And that just isn't good enough for me.

p.s. this girl keeps posting on UCSDlivejournal. I find it interesting, maybe she's trying to unknowingly build that community [albeit, online] that UCSD so desperately needs?
--12:14 PM

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when will asian girls learn that you canNOT wear eyeshadow if you do not have a crease? your eyes look smaller and puffy.
--10:01 AM

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